fuck this fuck this fuck this!!

Im not playing hard to get. Im not playing at all. Im done. Getting so emotionally caught up in this "does he- doesn't he" bullshit. Im done micro analyzing what a boy does and says.

I think when I like someone I make it pretty obvious. I dont throw sexual innuendos at just anyone. I say what is on my mind. If I tell you I want you to come over so we can make out- im not joking. Im serious. Im not going to be someone else. Im not going to be like every other girl who feels like she needs to play games to get a guy. and i dont want a guy that feels the need to play the games to get the girl. fuck society and these stupid rules and games.



I havent dated in 5 years. I dont know how to date and I dont care to if this is the bullshit I have to deal with. I'd rather slip a guy a note that says "circle yes if you like me, no if you dont." and leave it at that.
And I dont want to be afraid of ruining my friendships if I developed feelings for the guy. I fucking like you, have since 9th grade. and if your not okay with that- cool, lets remain friends and not get all weird. CAN YOU HANDLE THAT? Im not going to jump your bones if you dont want them jumped, god damnit!

why cant I be myself and be honest with everyone?

cause im scared. AND FUCK THAT.


I'd rather be alone then having this hot and cold emotional ride. FUCK THAT.

Im not a cheap whore. I'm not going to be your tumble in the sheet every now and again. You can't ignore me one minute and be all over me the next. I havent had sex with you- and im not going to. So FUCK THAT.

Flirt with me for a week and then suddenly not text me back? FUCK THAT.

Cheat on me? FUCK THAT.

so pretty much fuck all guys. the highs, the lows, the drama. I'd rather be asexual... and I think i have enough toys to get by.

so FUCK THAT.